Losing friends after High School

    I think about this situation a lot and so I thought I would blog about it.

After I left high school, I think I lost about 95% of the friends I used to hang out with. I used to think I would be close with all of them for the rest of my life. Those were the people I used to go to parties with and spend all my time with. I confided in many of them, lots of them helped me through my depression and I will forever be grateful for that. But after school finished, it all completely changed. Remember all those nights you spent promising your high school friends you’d visit each other no matter what? That never happened. We all drifted apart, there were many fights about people being left out and basically everyone got tired of each other. And that's okay because I think it was for the best. You start to realise who will be there for you no matter what, through thick and thin.

   I decided to completely stop drinking and partying after school ended. I had a different outlook on what I wanted to do in life and drinking was taken completely out of the picture for me as I started to grow up. I had many questions on why I don't drink and my main reason is that I don't have interest in it anymore. I don't have anything against people that, do what makes you happy, I love seeing people happy. But it doesn't have that effect on me anymore. I don't like going to the bar and having that numb feeling because of alcohol. I straight up just don't like going out because of my stupid social anxiety. I'm all for going over to someone's house or someone coming over and having dinner and playing games or watching shows because that's where I'm myself and feel more comfortable. But when it comes to getting invited out to go drinking, I don't ever go. I may seem like a grandma trapped into a 20 year old's body but that's just like how spending evenings and weekends, especially with my hubby and puppy.

   At first, losing friends was so hard for me. I barely had anyone to talk to, or hang out with, I didn't feel important to anyone anymore. But it also made me grow up a lot faster because I realised that I didn't need people to make me feel important. That I didn't need to always be around people to make me feel happy. And now I'm so content with my life and who I have in it that I knew it all happened for a reason, and a good one of that.

   I learned a lot of things on my own, like A LOT. I learned how hard it is to lose friends and how hard it is to make friends. I learned that I am also still young and will have plenty of time to find new ones that have the same interests as me and same values. I learnt that old friends can also come back into your life and it's either a great thing or there was a reason why they left and you shouldn't have let them come back in. Life is full of lessons and I'll always continue learning and while I do that, I'll continue to achieve new things and continue to love life. But I'll forever cherish the beautiful and wonderful memories and moments with my old friends, they'll always be close to my heart. Don't give up on yourself or others around you, especially if they deserve to be there.

Thanks for reading if you're still here, and until next time!

Lots of love,